teen schizophrenia? do i have it?
hi im 15 and i think i might be schizophrenic. Ill say my symptoms and i would like a response of what you guys think. Ok usually something triggers the symptoms. like me getting angry sad or scared. Then i get these hot and cold flashes and i have uncontrolable urges to break things scratch out my eyes and do otherwise self destructive things. Then usually i will hear voices and on occaison i see strange things in the walls. Whenever my parents are talking to eachother and i hear them i always think they are talking about me and planning to send me away somewhere. I often times get severe depression or anger over pety issues. Sometimes i really want to injure people around me and torture them though i have gone to every length to keep myself from hurting myself and others. Sometimes i do things i dont want to do but i do them anyways as if im blinded from who i really am and what i would really do in that situation. For instance one day i decided to take a piss in the football lockers and i would never normally do something like that. i know its stupid but then it sounded hilarious. then later after i did it i realized… FOOTBALL PLAYERS so basically i got in trouble and almost killed my my schools football team. I know schizophrenia is often times hereditary. and can be brought on by drug use and other things. there has been some substancial drug use in my part but i am currently trying to quit it. My mom has Multiple Sclerosis and depression if maybe that has been passed on to me and caused these happenings. so yeah… serious helpful responses would be greatly appreciated and some advice on what to do or how to get help would be nice. This is messing up my life and im scared so i really need help fast.
oh and by the way often times i find myself typing or writhing the wrong thing. my brain thinks a but my hands write z. I want to say car but instead i say fish i cant help it. Is this just my lack of focus oooorrr…?
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