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first depressed now lonely?

15th June 2010

first depressed now lonely?

Hi I hope someone can give me some input/advice with an issue that is really bugging me. I had a bit of time 8months. Where I felt depressed. Nothing specific just no drive to do anything. I was assure this was just your everyday 17 year old depression. But lately it has been replaced with a really deep and profound sense of lonliness. I just want someone to talk to. Or somone to love. It sucks I just feel like there is no one outside of my family who is their for me.

I also feel like Im a nothing. I started to cut myself so I could be a proper crazy guy rather than not knowing what I am. I have not cut for 2 months now and rarely feel like doing it anymore.

I used to talk to my sister about my problems but after a fleeting high risk online relationship failure. Telling her Im gay. Telling her I tried to kill myself when I was 14. I think she thinks my problems are done.
I feel bad that I unload my issues onto her but I need someone to talk to.

She has taken to just kinda be littling my problems now. She will laugh or tell me to shut up or get a grip. And say its just me being a self absorbed teen.

She might be right but I need somebody.
I cant talk to my mum or dad because they dont know Im gay.

My questions are.
1. How can I stop feeling so lonely
2. How can I feel like a have an identity
3. How can I make my sister take me seriously
4. How can I work out what I am

I hope I didnt sound like a idiot too much. It just gets on top of me sometimes and I dont know how to handle it.
How do I go about getting a therapist ?

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